the spirit of christmas

Well as you all know Christmas is coming up! Everyone is super happy and in the spirit.. to be jolly falalala la la la. haha okay lemmi stop. But unfortunately for me I haven’t been in the spirit for a good amount of years. Sad… I KNOW! I would hum the occasional Christmas song when I hear it but once I see the jumbo ornaments and light drip fixtures at the malls I can't help but to look down and cringe.

So what’s the reason why I despise this holiday so much, you may ask??
Well Christmas used to be one of my favorite holidays of the year, besides Halloween, and my birthday of course ;) But anyways, my family on my mother’s side would always get together at my Auntie Sonias house. Usually all my cousins from California would swing by and we would do all sorts of fun things, catching up, and just laugh and tease the night away. Christmas would satisfy all my senses, Food was always good since my auntie was probably the greatest cook, no offense mommma dukes :]The super succulent fumes would prance around the house and made everyone’s mouths water. Just thinking back on how appetizing her dishes looked makes me wanna lick my lips. Haha. And you think that sounds good? My Uncle Corny would have major Beetles jam sessions downstairs in his basement. Everyone would crowd around while he would strum on his guitar and belt out classic Beetles tunes. *When I sit waiting for the train, my ipod is left on shuffle and when a Beetles song "Something" plays, I smile to myself and think of Christmas again.* Once the clock struck 12 I would remember all the loud voices and the site of everyone smiling while they give and receive. An ocean of colorful gift wrapping flowed through the floor and surrounded our legs along with bows, ribbons and more debris.

*another memory was when one Christmas when we went out to Foxwoods and opened "Secret Santa" gifts but i wasn't allowed to :/ it was for the older cousins, but it was still hilarious seeing what they all got each other.*

SEEE? I had the Christmas spirit at one time :] but all the joyful moments came to an end when one year my auntie and uncle moved to Las Vegas... and since most of the Hermida Family now lived on the West Coast there were no more Christmas visits here on the East.

So... that’s the reason why I resent the season so much. But hey, things happen, times change, so I guess I have to stop being a Grinch and have it upon myself to try and make an effort to open my mind and appreciate the goodness of Christmas.